fell asleep for the 1st time ever in a cinema yesterday *sigh* ok i was slightly tired, though still high from our rather successful string concert *beam* but still, if it had been a movie like say, pirates of the caribbean i doubt i would have drifted off..

the movie in question? the anticipated "closer". yeah been wanting to watch that, cos the problems in there are quite close to home.. no i hope i'm not as extreme as them, but you get the idea. anyway, the main draw was to see what'd happen to the characters in the end, to see what might be the end result of living the way they did. but noo.. last i remember was jude law holding queen amidala while she sobbed and asked if he'd loved her at all, after he said he loved another cos the new one didn't need him.. oh and julia roberts' husband also sobbing and asking roberts to give him a goodbye fuck and she agreed, and THEN mr law found out about that and confronted roberts, and then the screen started getting blurry and next thing i knew i was being gently shaken and the credits were rolling.

well then. would anyone be kind enough to tell me what on earth happened in between? apparently they all got back tog with their original partners in the end, "due to complicated reasons", as jon so diplomatically put it. imho, it'd be much better as a play (cos a movie's too glossy) or a book (so i can find out what on earth they're discussing).

if there's anything to be learned from the movie (or what fraction i caught of it anyway), it's that relationships are a pain. you squirm in the beginning, ponder your brain to bits in the middle and when it ends, hope to either get run over by something metal that runs on fuel, or embrace gravity. the movie's tagline is such a cheerer too- "if you believe in love at 1st sight, you never stop looking".

so why do so many people still do it? because you live for the moments when everything feels right, for that few hours or minutes or even seconds when serotonin simply floods the system and you can't believe that life could actually be so sweet. of course once that moment passes it's back to hell as usual, but that story's for another time.

cheers!

thou shalt never see darth tater, the adorable mr potato head spoof of darth vader, via the link below again, because the powers that be have proclaimed straits times interactive to be a paying subscribers-only site. darn you folks!

on a less damning note, attended my long-lost cousin's wedding dinner at shangri-la yest. huge ballroom, lush carpets and bunches of people i've never seen before. btw anyone who agrees that the tiered wedding cake is another scam, say "aye". it's inedible, too darn expensive, takes up space and has no purpose whatsoever except to be cut by the bemused couple. once. yeah weddings are the ultimate celebration of love, but i'm not sure what love means.. in "shall we dance", the wife says that marriage is only a promise to witness someone else's life so that we don't pass this transience alone and unnoticed. sam once mentioned whether a relationship was truly about being in love with the person, or being in love with the idea of being in love.

aw fuck it. you only live once. like i said, if there's ever a time for doing things that lack rationale, now's the time. enjoy.

oh wait, can't enjoy. must.... do... 208 report..

the things people do to cash in on the last great star wars fever (ep III revenge of the sith opens may '05) here. sacrilege, i say.. but it's still kinda cute =P

and so another vday has come and gone. how was your foray into this terribly commercialized scam?much as i abhor the retail foundation behind it, it's still a good day, an excuse to show your loved ones that u aren't an emotionless piece of wood. one thing though- much as you adore your other half, spare a thought for the singles out there.. we all know the feeling of being alone in a sea of proclaimed love.

that much said, i did enjoy this day.. thank you dear =) everything was perfect, down to the chilled glasses for the fab wine. presents don't really matter, just the person it's coming from. vday's tricky, no? apparently breakup rates are especially high during this period, where couples get even more stressed. love me, or love me not? it's not an absolute piece of advice, but it might come in handy: try not to think so much. i know you're supposed to consider if you really want this or not, if not you're just wasting time.. but will it really be a waste? i think not. just sit back and relax, savour the moment with the person you're with. time is never wasted if you're making someone happy. then again, maybe i'm fortunate to have someone who thinks the same way as me for now, but there i go again, thinking too much. lighten up people, it's gonna be a cock year ;)

my first bouquet ever.. don't scoff at the power of a bunch of plants, astronomical price nonwithstanding. was literally speechless when i saw it =P
hope you had a good one. if not, there's always next year, and the year after that.. hey i waited 2 decades yeah =)

finally shifted out of hall 10! now at a lovely hall with an attached washroom, where school is not a million light years away and the food is gourmet-class compared to what i used to have.. roomie's nice too. hi lori! hehe.

as we all know too well, for better or worse, vday's around the corner yet again. congrats to those who are happily attached, to those for which 14 feb is valentine's day, not something that rhymes with "d-day". as you may infer, i'm not too optimistic. how does one stay optimistic, when visions of staying happily together with one person seem awfully impossible? it's not that the present seems transient; it's more like an inexorable feeling that it's gonna be near to impossible to stay content and happy with any one person for v long. how would one know when he/she's the one? does a 5-storey neon billboard start flashing "THERE HE IS!!" when it happens? i guess that would be a very useful tool, judging by the number of people whining "but i don't know...". we'd never know, would we? the greatest joke life plays on us. the trick is to take all this jesting in your stride, not let the prancing fool make you one too.

i don't mean to be a wet blanket, so for all ye who ARE attached, cherish your partners. it may not seem much to you, but it took effort to be where you are now.

alrighty off to sleep now. cny's popping by any moment now, still dreaming of the butt-skimming cheongsam i didn't buy =P happy holidays! =D