am now 20yrs and 2days old. 363days to the symbolic 21 (which personally i don't see what's the fuss about, what's the diff betw 20 and 21?) so how do i feel about it? am i more learned, more mature, more refined? when you look back and see, it's amazing what can happen in the space of a couple of years. heck, this past one year of uni has been the most interesting so far. i say interesting, cos while there've been dizzying highs there've also been disappointing lows, but nothing i've been unable to get over yet so yes, life is blessed (at least so far). thou shalt count thy blessings.
pardon me if i sound egotistical, but saw this in some mag and thought it's brilliant. it's an outline of what cancerians are like:
yours is a strange sign with many paradoxical qualities. on the one hand, you're sensitive and easily hurt. on the other, you're determined, tough and overwhelmingly ambitious. sometimes you can appear a little too tough, but underneath it all you're as caring and compassionate as ever. your biggest weakness is your moodiness, but other people should realise it's your powerful feelings that make you such a good companion in the long run.
ok right i'm not sure about "overwhelmingly ambitious".. and i can't cfm the "good companion" part. penny for your thoughts.
had the most unbelievably brilliant bday celebration last sunday at the esplanade.. thanks lots to paveena, elaine, choon, darryl, benny and jon for a night that's gonna be darn hard to top =) love y'all! the company, venue, atmosphere, wine, cake, suspicious glass of alcohol generously offered by benny, the german couple.. everything was perfect. and the awe of seeing millions of yellow confetti and silver streamers raining down on everyone and everything.. it was everything i'd ever dreamed a perfect night would be, culmunated in those few wondrous hours. and thankfully dad didn't spoil the evening by grumbling abt the time i crept back home =P
and just a thought: why do some people strive to make things complicated? maybe some things matter, or maybe they really don't, i don't know. guess really shouldn't think about stuff, just enjoy the moment and cherish it while it lasts, no? yeah i guess that's it.. hedonism works best with short-term memory loss =) so here's a toast to doing things now just because they make you happy, to heck with what happens next. cheers!
the best laid plans of mice and men
life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get
always want what you cannot have
and so chronicles the unsatisfied life. the optimist may build intricate castles, but the realist points out that all is smoke and dust, while the pessimist chides for being so naive. projected situations (aka fantasies) only always come true in fairy tales and films. guess the bigger issue at hand is how to bounce back from such setbacks, or at least how to curb such reckless forward projection.
morose thoughts even early in the morning. this day does not bode well. wish me luck!
our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thoughts
-percy bysshe shelley-
i'm currently working at a clothing retail outlet, not exactly a very good thing to do during this sale period.. suffice to say, the shop is filled with crazed women and racks of clothing that are permanently messy no matter how hard and often you try to pack them. 2 things i've learnt so far:
1. you know those times when you go, oh wth let's just try this on for fun? yep it's perfectly understandable, but maybe (just maybe) the sales asst who sorts thru the stuff afterwards will be amused by the terribly-mismatched pair (i.e. you and the said clothing)
2. when faced with horrible people, is it better to seethe and fume and plot how to get back at them, or simply forget abt it? i belong to the latter.. does that mean i'm a peace-loving, sympathetic person or just pathetic? seem to be continuously throwing myself into situations that give me grief, so i do need to know which method is more effective.. yep it's a masochistic thing i guess.